Happy Independence Day!
LIFE updates! Usually I post something in May every year about my progressions, however this year it came and went without any acknowledgment. Lately, I’ve been having some mental health issues which in turn makes it very difficult for me to find the motivation to get up and make any sort of art. I’ve probably been feeling this way for a few years and it’s just now escalating to the point where it has become a major issue. Exhaustion isn’t good. I have recently discovered the cause of my depressions and anxieties and will be changing it very soon. I can’t announce it just yet, but I’m so looking forward to the change. I haven’t been this ecstatic over something in a very long time.
I feel like since I’ve graduated I’ve discovered more of what I don’t want to do than what I DO want to do. I’m still trying to strive to live by “do what you love,” however, I’m realizing that having the FREEDOM to do what I love is almost as important if not more important. And staying in a position that strangles my ability to do that is wrong. Why should I sacrifice my life and well being to something that diminishes me on the inside and does not allow me to grow? I’ve been doing a lot of soul-searching recently, and a lot of discovering what I don’t want to be doing.
Changes are scary. But doesn’t that mean that we’re growing? If I wasn’t scared, it would be too easy. Not that I don’t want things to be easy (I’d much rather live without conflict, but I have been recently and have been miserable), but I think it will be a good challenge. I am PURSUING HAPPINESS. My heart feels so full to be discovering where I belong.
All that being said, watch this space for more updates and probably some more art! I’ve been working on a few ideas and am pretty excited to share them.