Ramblings on a Friday Night

Be prepared for random thoughts. It's late on this Friday.  I don't have my normal job tomorrow.  Part of me wonders what I'd do if I had a normal job and had a normal weekend.  Would I go out for breakfast?  I know I previously stated one of my future goals to be that I'd go to the beach Sunday mornings when I live in San Diego.  Why does life seem mediocre in places you already live?  Is it because you feel like you've explored every nook that you thought possible?

What makes making art at school any different than making art at home?  How has the importance changed?  Has society worn on me so much that I've lost the value of making art?  I feel like a weary creature forced to work at a job she dislikes.  Maybe it's because I haven't quite found the job that I do like... I was discussing with a friend this evening that if I could make money blogging, that would be amazing.  Or if I could make money making things while I sat here watching tv shows all day that I would be rich.  Alas, I haven't found those niches quite yet.  I just think I'd work so much better in a studio dedicated to art making, rather than in an office.  My one day of being a receptionist made me wonder what sort of lives people working in offices live...all I wanted to do when I came home was sleep.  How was I supposed to get anything done after spending all day in an office behind a desk?  Sure, I can do busy work, but just sitting there waiting for things to happen all day was boring to me.  I really hope I can get my taxidermy forms up and running.  I've been more motivated to work on my deer.  If I could make money doing that, I'd be set...maybe...hopefully.  Yes?  Everyone says they'd totally buy one...but would they really when they found out how much I'll have to end up charging for my time spent?  I'd totally do little ones with those animal figurines...maybe... That's actually a good idea...I have plans for this now.

I've been thinking about drawing and watercolor painting a lot lately...I ought to do something with those soon.

Anyway...those were just some thoughts I had and needed to get them off my chest tonight.  I hope you have a good weekend, and I'll see you all next week.

Saturday Morning Ramblings

Alright, I was bad again.  I missed Friday, but I still consider it okay, because I'm posting now as I have some time before I go to work this morning. It doesn't help that I have a cat sitting on my chest while I try to write.

I had a thought as I was sitting outside enjoying my cup of coffee.  Alright, it wasn't really enjoying because I've ran out of both milk and creamer.  I spent one Lent giving up creamer, but I still need it in my coffee in the morning.  So it was more like swallowing the bitter caffeine that fuels me each day, both then and now.  But I love coffee nonetheless, and it is always part of my morning routine.

Anyway, back to my thought.  It was cooler this morning.  Arizona summers don't seem to cool off until September or October...but this morning, it was overcast with the threat of rain and a cool breeze was blowing through.  At 82 degrees fahrenheit, it was lovely (as compared to the normal 100+ degrees that it usually is all summer).  It made me think about if I'd someday soon get to enjoy my coffee in California every morning, feeling that same breeze coming off the ocean and cooling down my coffee so that it was just the right temperature to drink.  It made me think about the future there versus a future here.  Will I be a Art Studio Assistant at the Children's Museum next year around this time?  Will I have a normal job?  Will I have my dream job?  Who will I be with?  Will I finally be in California for good?

This week was a little odd for me.  I'm trying to adjust my routine, but accommodate the changes.  For one, my roommate is back and school has started for him and my other friends still at ASU.  I said goodbye to my roommate Thursday morning as he went off to his classes, standing in the kitchen with my cup of coffee, and wished him luck.  I made this comment to my boyfriend, "You're off meeting Swedish royalty, everyone else is at classes this morning, and I'm sitting here with my cup of coffee, watching my cat chase her tail."

Stella

Granted, I can't complain.  I'm rather glad I've graduated and I don't have to think about classes or school or homework or assignments.  But at the same time, it gave me some normalcy in my life; a schedule.  But I hope now that my friends still in school are thinking about projects, that maybe it'll motivate me to work on my own.

Anyway, I'm off to work in a little while.  I like the days I get to come in at 9:30 instead of 8:30...but today is the last day in a while I'll get to be scheduled at 9:30.  I guess I should be thankful that they trusted me so quickly to become a Lead Art Studio Assistant, but I still feel like I don't know enough to qualify.  Oh well.  I learn as I go, and I ask questions, so I think I manage.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.  See you Monday!