The Annual Introspective

May 9 marks the day of my undergrad graduation. It is also the day my cat, Stella Rose, adopted me.

I've been sitting on this post since last May. It's always a month where I tend to evaluate myself and my progress due to the anniversary of my graduation. I remember getting to my car after the ceremony had ended, and pictures had been taken. I took off my gown and my cap and sat in the car and....cried. I think I became overwhelmed with the fact that I had no plans post-college. During the ceremony, I was looking around at everyone who had decorated their caps with inspirational messages about how they're moving up in the world and I had no big adventure. I just had my apartment, and my knitting, and whatever knowledge I had from my art classes. I knew I wanted to go to San Diego and make art there, but nothing else. How would my adventure from the summer before (Internship) ever measure up to whatever 2013 was supposed to be?

And then Stella landed in my lap. She crawled out of the bushes at my parents' house during the graduation party, sat in my lap, followed me around, and I decided I needed to take her home. She was probably going to become coyote food if I didn't. So then, I had something to take care of and to keep me busy and give me companionship...but maybe she really adopted ME so SHE could have someone to take care of.

Lots of things have happened since the last time I wrote a blog. Mostly schedule and job changes. I'm now back working solely in San Diego with two jobs. One keeps me busy most of the month and the other is my old internship! Now, who could have told me 4 years ago while I was sitting in my car crying that I would be back at one of the very places that brought me such joy? Also, I think I wrote in a blog post once that I wanted a job where I could spend all day in a yarn shop...and here I am (two days out of the week, at least). Funny how the universe works like that.

Since working at the shop again I have been telling customers about my story - about how it was my internship in 2012 (5 YEARS AGO - GET OVER IT MEGAN) and it was my dream summer. One of them threw me off guard when I had recited my tale...she asked: "What's next?"

What is next? I'm in San Diego. I'm working at the place that brought me so much happiness 5 years ago. What do I do now? Where do I go from here? Are these questions I should be asking myself??? Am I thinking too hard about it??? Do I have to have a "what's next?"

Well, of course not. I could sit here happy as a clam. Sometimes I feel like I'm always looking too far forward and not enjoying the moment. I do know that I need to get back to making art.  I'm still (STILL) working on the damned felted deer (does anyone want to take bets on if I'm going to finish it or not this year?). It seems that after one of my friends bought my mini felted creatures that I just stopped doing any art. I do make little watercolor studies sometimes, but a lot of the time I long for a studio and that halts my progress. I know that these things take time, but I also need to work hard for it.

I found a little bit of inspiration as I was going through my notes for blog posts. I don't remember him saying it, but I wrote about Dylan telling me three things: 1) Stay positive, 2) Keep moving forward and 3) Tell everyone your dreams.

I'm staying as positive as I can. I'm exhausted from my other job at the moment, but still happy (I really need a vacation, though). I'm doing my best to keep moving forward. And as for my dreams? I'm having a hard time thinking of what that is at the moment. I'm sure it will come to me though.

What are some milestone dates in your life that you use to evaluate yourself? Where have you been and where are you going?

3rd Annual San Diego Yarn Crawl

It's finally here! Today kicks off the 3rd annual San Diego Yarn Crawl! I had such a good time last year, running around to the different shops and expanding my stash. This year, however, I'm staying put in my Local Yarn Store. I'm going to be volunteering at South Park Dry Goods (formerly The Grove at Juniper and 30th where I interned 3 years ago) on Saturday and Sunday. 

There's a crispness in the air today that tells me Fall is finally creeping around the corner. It's been so hot here lately that putting wool into one's hands has been trying. Luckily I'm working on a laceweight project, Oceanspray, in Zen Yarn Garden's California Love. I'm almost finished with it, but with no plans for the next project. I have some pattern and yarn pairings ready to go, so I'll probably just grab something out of there, or cast on more socks. We shall see!

If you're going on the Crawl this weekend, be safe, have fun, and come by South Park Dry Goods and see us!

Moving Update

Hello, dear readers!  Thank you for being so patient with me while I work on building my life out here in San Diego.  Let me give you a bit of an update on my housing situation.

The first place we were looking at got scooped up by another interested party.  Disappointed, Dylan and I continued looking.  We thought we found another cozy home, but yet again, the landlords chose another party.  During the waiting period of them deciding who to pick, the first place opened up again...and we jumped on it!  As Dylan said this morning, "Everything happens for a reason."  We got the first house we were truly interested in and wanted, due to location and size and everything.  We sign the lease on Tuesday!

So we're heading to Phoenix this weekend to pick up some of our belongings, and Miss Stella Rose.  I miss her so much.  I'm sure many of you can relate when you're away from your pets...they're our fur babies. I've been away from Stella for about a month and a half...and I say every day that I miss her.  I'm so excited to be able to finally bring her home!  The drive is going to be interesting though...but we will manage!

I think one of the things I'm most excited for (besides bringing Stella home) is that I'm going to get to set up my first studio!  Yesterday at work I was planning in my head just where everything should go.  I really want a desk in there, but the futon from the old apartment might take that space.  Dylan wants to get rid of the futon, I don't, mostly because I want to use it in the studio. Another "We will see." I will be sure to keep you posted on how I end up arranging and organizing my studio!

I'm not sure when I'll get back to a normal blogging schedule, but I'll be sure to pop in when I can.  Until next time...!



During the next few weeks I may have to be on a more sporadic blogging schedule...or just blogging whenever I feel like it.   I'm afraid to jinx it, but I'm coming upon a couple of my first two goals for this year: 1. Finding an apartment/house and 2. Moving.  We've been looking for a place, and we think we've found one (fingers crossed, praying so hard, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let this be it!).  So, that means going back to Arizona, packing up everything and bringing it out here...if we get the place (PLEEEEAAASSSEEE)...and with my work schedule, I'm not exactly sure how that's going to happen.  I know it will, but it's not going to be that easy. But, I'm putting the cart before the horse. Again.

I'm really excited at the idea of the possibility of being able to have a studio space (FINALLY!) in the house.  There's so many plans and ideas I'd love to bring to light, I just didn't have the space in which to do it.  

So, bear with me, dear readers, while I embark on another adventure in my life...wish me luck, send your good thoughts and energy, and hopefully we'll be back to a normal, productive, art filled schedule soon!

Playing the Waiting Game

Some day I will get back into a routine with blogging.  Life just kind of gets in the way sometimes.  I wish it didn't have to, but I suppose if you're working toward a goal, it has to.

I was sitting down with my uncle last week and we were discussing my jobs, job hunting, interviews, and what is it that I really want to do.  He was trying to understand how I can make a living through Fibers.  The truth is that I can't right now.  I have to work for it.  

I know I can't just start up a studio right now because I don't have the money nor the knowledge on how to do something like that.  Sure, I can set something up, but I can't really pay for it, or sustain it.  There's money that goes into rent and supplies and whatnot, and what if I don't sell what I'm making?

My parents directed me to an article about an Etsy seller after commenting that maybe I should do that on the side. The ironic thing is that the article is called Secrets of the Richest Seller on Etsy and yet, no secrets are actually disclosed.  Even at the end of the article it says something about doing the research to be successful on Etsy.  Guess what?  No links or resources to assist in doing said research.  I think it's a poor article to be sure, considering no other information was given other than linking to the person's shop and website a bunch of times.  At least I have the mind to link to things when I talk about them so you, dear reader, don't have to go off searching the web for whatever it was I was talking about.

Anyway, stepping off my soap box.

I'm awaiting an answer from a job this morning.  If I get it, I'm starting on January 5th!  If I don't, then it's back to the drawing board.  It's a funny feeling to be standing at one of the many crossroads of life.  I'm so nervous.  I've had two interviews with the company already this past month, and I wasn't so nervous for those, which is good.  

EDIT: I have been accepted for the position!  Guess who is moving to San Diego?!

Vacation Time!

MHaerle011 Hey everyone, I have a job interview in San Diego this Friday. In addition, I might be also meeting with a recruiter there in the next week. Any prayers, good thoughts/energy, whathaveyou for these and other job opportunities and housing/apartment hunting you could send my way would be fantastic.

Thank you to all the people who have supported and encouraged me to follow through with my dream goal! It's finally almost becoming a reality...

While I'm there, I'll be taking a little hiatus from the blog.  It is a working trip, but I hope to have a little downtime while I'm there.  See you when I get back!

Thoughts on I Love Yarn Day

I didn't mean to miss yesterday's post.  I just had a lot going on at work.  And I was getting more literal rejections from jobs I've applied for.  One even called me but then decided against interviewing me when they heard I was only available on October 21st and wasn't living in San Diego right then.  I did explain my double edged sword dilemma (No one will hire me because I don't live in San Diego, and I can't live in San Diego until someone hires me), but alas.  Oh well.  The hunt goes on.  I have one week left of working this job, and then it's onto San Diego for the job hunting trip (finally). So my day was kind of a downer, but I was cheered up by Amanda (who I taught how to knit socks on Sunday) when she texted me a picture of her first completed wearable sock!  I'm so proud of her.  I cannot tell you how good it makes me feel when I see people I've taught to knit or taught certain techniques to flourish.  Best. Feeling. Ever. Damian shared with me last night a cowl he had finished for his mom with some yarn he dyed in the Indigo vat at school before he left.  Arlyn shows me her projects and planned projects.  If I can teach all of them and have them take off, surely I can teach others professionally?

Also, HAPPY I LOVE YARN DAY!!!!  We all know by now I have a healthy (or maybe not so healthy for my bank account) addiction to yarn.  And I have built up quite the stash since the San Diego Yarn Crawl.  I hope to work in my room this weekend to clean it a bit and maybe organize my stash and plan for future projects.

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Special Weekend Edition: San Diego Yarn Crawl 2014 Part 1

San Diego Yarn Crawl, September 18-21, 2014 Last Friday after I was off work, it was time to depart Arizona for Southern California.  Our destination: San Diego, for the 2014 San Diego Yarn Crawl!  I stopped to pick up the boyfriend, Dylan, and we headed out to pick up dinner to eat on the way, as well as some coffee for me.  We topped off at a nearby gas station to pick up some snacks for the trip ahead of us, and we were off at about 7:30pm.

The car trip was uneventful.  We made it to San Diego in about 5 and a half hours.  Then it was time for showers and bed.  I felt like a kid before visiting Disneyland (or every time I visit Disneyland).

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I prepared for the day, collected the essentials and we were off to Panera for breakfast.  After enduring a very manic and demanding woman with a cloak of polite "irreverentness" (Dylan's description), we collected our breakfast and coffee and were headed to our first stop.

Yarns At Border Leather After getting my passport stamped, free gifts and patterns, I walked around a bit to find my purchase.


Atacama by Araucania DK / 8 ply 100% Alpaca 110 yards / 50 grams

The Grove at Juniper and 30th Our next stop was the site of my internship two years ago.  I was able to see Susan, Anne, and Judy.  Heather of Ewe Ewe Yarns was there, too.  It was so nice seeing all of them and catching up a little.  I always go back to The Grove to say Hi every time I visit.


Sock by Oink Pigments Fingering / 4 ply 100% Merino 420 yards / 100 grams

I also purchased a small project bag I had been wanting for the past two years, and my San Diego Yarn Crawl tote bag.


Aranitas Yarn by Sofia Not far away, we arrived at our next stop and after a few minutes of browsing, I found what I was going to be bringing home with me.


Lace Merino DK by Ella Rae DK / 8 ply 100% Merino 302 yards / 100 grams

Yarn & Thread Expressions Next on the list was this shop.  On this trip I loved seeing the dynamic of each yarn shop.  With a yarn bombed tree outside, we stepped in and were greeted by my passport stamper.  Not long after I found my yarn selection.


Victoria 4Ply by Aurora Yarns Fingering / 4 ply 100% Polwarth Wool 436 yards / 100 grams

A Simpler Time Alpacas & Mill Onto the first Alpaca farm of the crawl!


We loved getting to see these gentle animals up close and personal.


Getting to see the mill and how the fiber is processed was great as well.  I came home with two skeins.


Alpaca Sport by A Simpler Time Alpacas & Mill Sport / 5 ply 1oo% Alpaca 140 yds / 85 grams

Needlecraft Cottage / The Yarnover Truck I had totally forgotten that the Yarnover Truck was going to be at this location!  After getting my passport stamped, I went outside to go check it out.  I didn't stay too long because I knew I was going to be seeing them the next day.  So, it was back inside to browse, and found a Rouge Baah! skien to take home.


La Jolla by Baah! Fingering / 4 ply 100% Merino 400 yards / 100 grams

Here is where the crawl ended for the day.  We were exhausted and hangry, so it was off to find food.  After food, I passed out at 6:30pm and didn't get up until 7am.

I will post Part 2 tomorrow!

Next Month's Plans

Can it be September 19 yet?  Cause that's when I plan on heading over to San Diego for the 2014 San Diego Yarn Crawl!  I wasn't able to go to the first one last year, so I'm determined to go this year.  Also, if you haven't noticed (ha.) I'm itching to take a trip to my favorite city.  So many yarn shops over there (as well as couple of Alpaca Farms!) are participating this year, including The Grove at Juniper and 30th, where I interned during Summer 2012.  If you're in the area September 18-21 you should check the crawl out. I'm only able to go Saturday and Sunday due to work, but I still plan on hitting as many stores, if not all, as I can before the event ends! That's all I really have for today...I'm going to be teaching a couple more people how to knit fairly soon.  That always makes me happy.  I really ought to just make a lesson plan that I can use so I can be more organized in teaching. I'll have to eventually!

Have a lovely weekend!

Goals Past and Present

Last Friday, I mentioned I was going to work on goals.  I decided that it might be best for me to revisit a post I had made two years ago when I made this blog for my Marketing for Artists class.  It was really interesting to me, mostly because there was a section about two years from the point I wrote the post.  And now, it's been two years later...

-Short Term Goals (Now-2014 [2 yrs]) 1. Be selected to have work in 3 or more juried art shows. 2. Internship (preferably in San Diego). 3. Move in with two of my classmates who are also Fibers Majors. 4. Graduate in May of 2013. 5. Overcome my fear of what my parents think (regarding what I want to do and where I want to live). 6. Move to San Diego. 7. Work at a yarn/fiber store.

Now, it's kind of amazing to me that I have done about 5 out of those 7 things, and am still working on the other two.  The ones I completed are as follows:

1. I sort of lost interest in showing my work after I graduated, but I almost made my goal of 3.  During my undergrad, I was in 2 juried shows!

2. I did my internship in San Diego during the summer of 2012.

3. I moved in with one of the two Fibers classmates, and I've been living with him for almost 2 years!

4.  Yes, I graduated.

7. Besides my internship, I got a job at another yarn shop for a short period of time.

So, what am I still working on? 5 and 6.  I'm still working on getting over my fear of what my parents think regarding my life choices.  Friday after my meeting, I went to their house, and I just started crying because I was scared that they wouldn't support my decision to move.  In reality, they just didn't know how serious I was about moving to San Diego.  I think they'd support me no matter what, they're just worried about if I'll be able to find a job to afford living out there.  And of course, I'm working to get to San Diego.

So, I'm now going to make a list of current goals, but in shorter intervals, and then longer ones.

-In the next 3 months (Now-June)

  1. Begin packing (April)
  2. Extend lease to end of June (April)
  3. Locate storage space (June)
  4. Take the family cruise to Alaska and RELAX (May)
  5. Move back to my parents' house (June)
  6. Continue working on felted animals and knitting projects

-In the next 6 months (Now-September)

  1. Continue working temp/contract jobs
  2. Continue searching for job in San Diego
  3. Search for housing in San Diego
  4. Take a trip to San Diego to physically be there while I search (July or August?)
  5. Move....................?

So I guess those are my goals with a smaller time frame.  If I can't move by October, I at least want to be out by the end of the year.  The other thing is, I don't want to be living at my parents' for forever.  I'm so used to living on my own with friends and having that freedom.  Also, the boyfriend has been talking about moving in together, so we'll see where he is in September with his own job hunt.  After October, it gets kind of fuzzy in my head.  I can't quite see that far...but let's try.

-In the next 2 years (Now-2016)

  1. Living and working in San Diego
  2. Continue with felted animals and begin selling them
  3. Teach knitting classes
  4. Design knitting patterns to sell
  5. Go to the beach at least once a week (Sunday mornings?)
  6. Visit home 4-5 times a year (especially for Easter and Christmas)
  7. Travel (because the boyfriend probably wouldn't let me get away with not traveling, but also because I'd like to see a little more of the world)

So, that's where I am with all of that at this point.  I feel so much better now that I've written all of that down.  Hopefully it wasn't too boring.  And I know I have time.  I just have to put my mind to it.  And, even better, I know that the sky is the limit when I put my mind to it.

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Switching It Up

Have you noticed new things on the blog lately?  I got some miraculous motivation to work on some documents for a professional packet that needed to be uploaded that I had had on my previous blog.  Finally! They should be all up to date and available for you to see. I also put up some art pictures!  Please go look and enjoy!

I've been meaning to write another post for a while.  I also have been meaning to switch up my schedule.  I know I keep saying both of these things, but it will eventually happen, I promise!  More on that when I figure out exactly what I'm doing on here again.

I don't feel as monotonous as I have lately.  I've been trying to clean and organize.  The possibility and reality of moving out of my apartment is looming over my head.  My emotions are like a roller-coaster.  One day I'm okay and everything is feeling fine.  The next, I'm so paralyzed by stress, I lay in bed looking at the ceiling as the tears drip from the outer corners of my eyes.  Today I've been diffusing essential oils and that seems to be helping with my energy levels and motivation.  I always feel like doing things when I use the Citrus Fresh oil from Young Living.  I mixed it with lavender, and now my living room smells amazing.

ANYWAY.  What's new?

I took a trip to Hawaii in February with my boyfriend and his parents.  It was much needed (though I feel like I need another vacation from my life with all this stress happening upon me).

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I didn't get as much vacation knitting done as I thought I might, but it was REALLY nice to just be able to calm my mind and relax.  It's been 10 years since I had been on any of the Hawaiian Islands.  We were on the Big Island which I had never been to before.  It was gorgeous.  We could see the whales from our resort and went out on a catamaran to see them closer.  It was amazing.

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I finished my Embrace Sweater.  It's huge on me, but comfy, and I'm happy with it.  It'll probably be one of those items of clothing that I'll want to pull on when it's chilly out, and I'm just curled up on the couch.

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I also made a headscarf out of the silk yarn the boyfriend brought back from Stockholm last year.  Two day project and I'm satisfied by making another thing.  The boyfriend and I went to San Diego before he left for the Caribbean (more about that in a second) and I got some buttons from The Grove to put on the headscarf.

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Also in San Diego, I got one of the chairs from The Grove.  Stella has taken a liking to it.

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I ordered two taxidermy deer head forms to begin progress on my felted creatures.

Look at it's cute, derpy smile!

I dyed wool and began seriously working on the project after I finished my sweater.  I feel like since that sweater is done I am able to focus more on other things.  Everyone who I talk to about the felted animals seems to be eager to have one.  I really hope that they come to be something I can produce and sell this time around.  I think it'll also help that they're to be put up on the wall instead of sitting on a pedestal.  Even I have an aversion to sculptures that collect dust.  The boyfriend and I found some mounted antlers at the antique mall for me to use as reference for the antlers I'm going to make to put on the deer forms.  Not quite sure how I'm going to do this yet, but I'll figure it out when the time comes.

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I FINALLY finished my Doctor Who shawl last night, and started on a hat for a friend of the boyfriend's.  Not much else is planned as far as knitting goes.  I've kind of, sort of, given up buying yarn for Lent.  I know, I know, how am I surviving?  But I think it'll be good, both for my budget and my yarn stash.  That way I can start on those projects I had planned for last summer that already have patterns and yarn assigned to them.

Doo wee doo!!

So, back to the boyfriend being in the Caribbean.  I had about two weeks notice to him leaving for the summer (I wasn't pleased with this at all).  He's working on another ship.  But, even though he's away, I know he's doing something that he's always wanted to do, so I'm being as supportive as I can.  Doesn't mean I don't miss him any less.  He's only been gone a week, and it feels like forever to me.  I think that might be part of my stress...I'm so used to spending so much time with him, that when he's not here, I have this huge gap in my day.  I don't really have him as an outlet to discuss what I'm stressing over because I'm not able to talk to him much, but he was able to call me last night, and it really lifted my spirits.

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Anyway, hopefully that covered everything.  I'm going to try to take it easy and knit some more.  Until next time, or until I figure out a better blogging schedule...

In Regard to Yesterday's Quote

Yesterday's quote really hit home for me this week.  In the past couple weeks I haven't been feeling 100% about myself.  I think I was either working too hard, or my body was trying to get me sick, or my hormones were going crazy...but all in all, I was beginning to lose all hope about things that were important to me.  Namely, I was losing hope about my San Diego dream. Ever since maybe Sophomore or Junior year of college, I had this dream that I wanted to move to San Diego, have my studio by the ocean, make art and give small workshops for adults on Fiber Art.  Or maybe not by the ocean, but close to it.  The closest I've ever felt to achieving this dream was when I was doing my internship during Summer 2012.  But in the last couple weeks, I felt as if everything was slipping.  I don't feel as if the connections I have there are strong enough to achieve anything.  I feel like bridges are being burned.  I'm not sure I could afford being there.  And the jobs I'd want, no one is hiring for or they can't afford to have me.  I know this is all negative thinking.  I feel stuck.  I just always thought that I might be in San Diego by now.  Maybe that's naive of me.  I've talked it over with various people and a lot of them have been saying that I don't need those connections.  The connections I had before don't matter right now, all that matters is that I go out there and try to achieve my dream.  Which I understand, but San Diego holds a lot of memory for me, good and bad.  Do I really want to be in that environment?

And then I found the quote for yesterday:

“Do not lose hold of your dreams or aspirations. For if you do, you may still exist but you have ceased to live.” – Henry David Thoreau

Exactly.  If I don't have San Diego, then what do I have?  Routine.  Monotonous routine.  I've seen myself start to fall into that.  I've created a chore list for myself that I try to repeat every week, and that's all I've been getting done.  At least the house is somewhat clean, but it's not really.  I have my knitting projects, and sometimes I sit down to read, but every weekend I'm off to work and I feel like that ruins my creative motivation.  I've considered looking for a new job, but it'd have to be here for a little while.  I feel like I'm holding myself back.  I try to take steps to get myself to my dream, but it's those steps that are stopping me.  Maybe I should just get up and go?  Just pack everything up, take Stella, and go?  There's a couple of Knitwear Designer jobs in Irvine which isn't too far from San Diego.  Maybe I should apply for them and see?  But I also am looking forward to moving into a house with Damian and Arlyn this summer.  I just don't know.  Timing is never right.

But again, going back to that quote, I need to keep my dream in mind, or else I don't have anything else to strive for right now.  So, that's my motivation for today.  Other motivation is to organize sewing patterns, clean and organize papers in the car, and work more on my Embrace Sweater I started last week.  Hooray!

Progress and Catch Up

Hello all.  I'm sorry I've been MIA the last few weeks.  Life sort of happened and I also got lazy and unmotivated, as I do.  Whoops.  But I have a lot of progress to report, so shall we begin? I finished the baby hat I previously mentioned in my last Casual Friday post.

I completed my Halloween costume, and damn, does it look awesome!  I wore it to a Halloween party the weekend before and then again on the actual day at my aunt and uncle's.

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My aunt, uncle and I visited Carefree for their Art Festival.  We have attended it before, and it's small, but it was still nice to get to see the fine art artists are selling.  Since starting work at the Children's Museum, I haven't been able to attend any art shows with my aunt and uncle.  We used to go on Sunday's but since I work during the weekend, that hasn't been possible.  :(

I started and completed my sister's Christmas hat!  It's blocking now as I write, so I'll get some better pictures of it later.

I taught Arlyn how to knit!

Dylan and I took a trip to San Diego earlier this month.  I got to visit Susan and see The Grove and everything.  We also went to the San Diego Zoo and the Maritime Museum.  I think we hit all our bases when it came to our mutual interests.  It was a fun filled week and I hope we can go back soon!

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I'm trying to get my life a little more in order.  I cleaned my room today, so I'm already feeling more productive and motivated to do things and work on things.  Plus, with Christmas around the corner, I need to be working on knitted Christmas gifts!  I have a bunch in mind.

Until next time, and hopefully it won't be too long from now!

What are you proud of this week? And other news.

Hey!  I made it to Friday!  And you did, too!  What did you accomplish this week?  I kept on schedule with the blog this week, so that's something to be proud of.  Other things that happened this week that I feel proud of are that I joined a gym and had my first workout last night.  While I was expecting to feel super sore today, because, let's face it, Megan doesn't work out...she just sits there and knits, I don't feel that sore.  I feel little twinges in certain muscles, but nothing that is confining me to one spot.  So yeah!  That happened!  On my way to being in better shape! I also started a baby hat I promised someone months ago (way before the baby was born).  As soon as I finish it, it'll be ready to wear.

This cold (or whatever it is) I've been battling has still not gone away.  I feel like I'm getting better, and then my nose gets stuffy all over again.  I'm wondering if it's more allergy based because they have been doing a lot of reseeding around my apartment complex.  I also had three teeth fixed on Wednesday morning.  Stupid cavities....two more to go in a few weeks.  Meh.

The boyfriend has been sending me lots of job postings.  He even found one in San Diego for me last night and urged for me to apply.  And I really want to...but I think part of me is scared, due to the fact that everything in my life is here now, and not so much over there anymore.  That isn't to say that I don't still want to end up in San Diego.  I think what is mostly holding me back is that my lease here at my apartment doesn't end until April (then where I'm going to live after that, I have no clue).  That, I'm a horrible packer when it comes to moving and I just have TOO MUCH STUFF.  Step one would be for me to start getting rid of a lot of stuff...but I have no clue where to begin at the moment.  I'm not sure I can afford San Diego right now either.  It's all very scary to me and I need to talk to people about it, mostly my parents.  I still feel like I'm tied down to them when it comes to anything job or living situation related.  I take their opinion very seriously, but I know I need to really branch out on my own and make my own decisions.  Sometimes it's just difficult because I know if I don't have their support, I'll feel even more lost.

Anyway, hopefully I can get something done today in regard to cleaning my room and organizing stuff...and possibly making a pile of things to get rid of.  I know I'll feel so much better and uncluttered if I do that.  And then maybe I can start thinking about more job opportunities.

Have a good weekend!

Last Day of My Internship

I'm getting a sort of sick but nervous feeling in my stomach.  The thought of leaving California is constantly on my mind, and not in a good way.  Today is the last day of my internship and my going away party, tomorrow I'm driving home. It went by so fast.  I was just looking at the Instagram picture I took of myself on day one, May 22.


And now it's August 10.

Susan and I were discussing how we're both failing to function because I'm leaving.  As I was packing I had the same sick feeling I do today.  And I knew it was because I was leaving.  I'm leaving my home.  God willing, I'll be back for good someday.

Sometimes the Store is Dead or Catching Up on the Blog

As I prepare to write this post, I notice I'm sitting in a completely empty store.  A few people have wandered in and out, but no one remains.  It's a beautiful day outside...the type of day that when I look out the door, I sort of get that emotional high feeling that I got when I was at Balboa Park.  I got a cheese danish and iced coffee (with vanilla shots) from Rebecca's across the street to start my Friday.  The sounds of Andrew Bird play over my iPod.  The past two days were Madeline Peyroux days, so I thought a change was in order.  No iPhone or wifi to use Pandora on my iTouch...oh well.

The Summer Walkabout in South Park was a great success.  I had a blast, even though I was stuck at the desk all evening.  Erich and Jack came to visit me while I was working.  That was a nice surprise.  The theme was Summer of Love and so I had a lot of fun dressing up like a little Flower Child.

My travels home are on my mind.  Pretty soon I'll have to start packing my things for the drive home.  It's going to be truly bittersweet.  I'm going to really miss my new friends and my new surroundings.  My head is almost in a place where I can start thinking about going home and moving into my new apartment and starting school again.  Senior  I can remember being a freshman at Benedictine College thinking that my final year of college was so far off...and now here it is!

I wanted to go back to the Self-Realization Fellowship Gardens last Monday to do some watercolor painting, but they were closed.  I was rather bummed.  I haven't gotten to use my travel watercolor set that I received for Christmas yet.  I feel like I've neglected it.  I thought about then going to the Quail Botanical Garden (Or San Diego Botanical Gardens as the website says), but I think I was just so miffed about the other garden being closed that I didn't feel very much like paying $12 to enter.  I think I was just overall not having a very good day and needed a nap instead.  Hopefully before I leave I can get some painting done.

Before I leave, we're going to take pictures of all the sample work I've done for the store.  That way I can update my portfolios.  When I return home, I plan to take pictures of all my work from last semester since I haven't been able to do that yet.

I'm planning on creating a Facebook Page for myself as an artist.  By planning, I mean I've already created it, it just needs pictures.  That will be my next online project.


Happy weekend!

Exploring Balboa Park

On June 21, I decided to use my day off to go to the San Diego Museum of Art and explore Balboa Park.

I had previously visited Balboa Park during Spring Break when I was out for my internship interview.  Erich and I visited the Mingei International Museum upon Susan's recommendation.

I had an enjoyable walk to the museum from my car.  The weather was beautiful: warm, sunny and not a cloud in the sky!

For about an hour and a half I wandered around the museum.  My favorite painting had to be The Young Shepherdess by William-Adolphe Bouguereau.

Maybe it was because it was something about sheep or fiber related, but it just struck me as a painting I  needed to constantly go back to study!  Or maybe something about her reminded me of myself.  I found a postcard of the painting in the museum gift shop for a dollar, so I decided that was a good souvenir.  Interestingly enough, I didn't notice until long after I left Balboa Park that the very same girl was on the visitor sticker I received upon paying admission!

On a critical note, the museum was smaller than I imagined it to be.  Perhaps I am spoiled with the Phoenix Museum of Art or the Nelson-Atkins Museum of Art in Kansas City. I left the museum at about noon.  I couldn't decide if I wanted to spend money on a lunch at the museum's cafe, or if I wanted to just get a snack at first.  As I exited the museum, the bells were playing Pachabel Canon.  Soon after they played Fur Elise and following that Zip-A-Dee-Doo-Dah!  There was some sort of children's camp event happening near the Lily Pond.

I sat there for a bit, gathering my thoughts, taking a few photos and enjoying the atmosphere. I decided to go back to a a small coffee bar I had passed before going to the museum.  I got a cappuccino and an apple to nibble while I continued exploring the park.  I walked towards the Natural History Museum (an adventure for another day!) and found the large fountain.  I had to call my Mom a couple of times just so that I could get some of my excitement out.

As I continued walking around, I discovered that I was going toward the San Diego Zoo entrance.  That put things into a little more perspective of where I was.  After walking back toward the fountain, I went through the Spanish Village Art Center.

If I had not had a drink in my hand, I would have explored there more, but I didn't want to accidentally spill my coffee on anyone's art.  It's highly unlikely I would, but I didn't want to risk it.  I did see an outdoor glass blowing demonstration.  Actually, I think it was a lesson, but still very interesting to watch!  I want to go through there again (without a drink) so that I might explore the studios a bit more and maybe even purchase some art!

Before I left the park, I went into the Timken Museum of Art since it was free.  They did not allow pictures inside.  I wish they had because there was an image of a plaza in Venice that looked terribly familiar to me.  I ended up calling Mom again to ask if it was the one she and my Dad had visited on their cruise and it was!  I knew there was a reason the painting looked so familiar; I had seen a photograph she took of St. Mark's Square!

After going through that small museum, it was about 2:30.  I decided it was about time for me to leave Balboa Park because I had a class to assist teaching at my internship in a few hours.

I simply cannot wait to return for another adventure in Balboa Park!