Quote of the Day Tuesday

"Don’t wait for someone to bring you flowers. Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul." — Mario Quintana

This quote had a twofold meaning for me today. One is that my boyfriend did, in fact, bring me flowers for no reason today (he's the best!).  The other is that it kind of made me thing about my whole dream goal (here we go again).

I can't wait for an opportunity to fall into my lap (though it'd be very nice if it did).  Instead, I have to go looking for the opportunities.  This job hunt isn't going to happen unless I do it myself.  Same goes for finding housing.

But every now and then, something happens, and things do fall into my lap.  Hoping something will soon, all the while searching myself.



Quote of the Day Tuesday - Sara Blake

"Work your ass off. It’s not going to be easy and you’re going to hear “no” a lot. I’ve considered being a barista many, many times in my adult life just to get out of an office job. You’re going to have to do certain things to make money and certain things to fulfill yourself creatively and they’re not always the same thing, so don’t freak out. Make lots of work; the work speaks for itself." -Sara Blake via The Great Discontent

Quote of the Day Tuesday

"A strong person is not one who doesn’t cry; a strong person is one who cries for a moment openly, and then gets up and fights again for what they believe in." -Marc Churnoff

I was struggling in finding a quote for today.  And then Marc and Angel did it again.  This quote came from another article I wish I could just put here for all of you to read.

Many of their articles hit home for me, as did this one.  I had a moment relating to this quote late last week.  I was overtired from working, and nothing felt like it was going right.  I had to cry and get it all out of my system, and then go to bed.  I do feel stuck, but that doesn't mean I'm not on my path to my end goal.  This is all just a stepping stone.

I woke up to the rain this morning.  Instead of working, I wish I was at home with coffee and knitting and art.  But just because I want that, doesn't mean I ought to disdain what I'm doing now.  Soon I'll have the time to do just what I want, but for now, I have to sacrifice my time to get there.  I've started trying to get a little more art into my day by doing the Spoon Challenge from Spoonflower.  I really want to get better at drawing things and using my Wacom Tablet so I can start making designs for fabric to put on there.  I also think it might be time to revamp my goals list.  But that's for tomorrow.


Quote of the Day Tuesday

"No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world." --Robin Williams

I was at the end of my work day yesterday when I saw a notification from one of my news apps on my phone alerting me about Robin Williams' death.  I was shocked and saddened.  It's weird when you hear about celebrities dying.  It's like you lose someone you know, albeit not personally, but it still feels personal nonetheless.  So many people I know have favorite movies like Hook and Aladdin, because that's what we grew up on.  I've seen so many posts that say "Genie, you're free."  Seeing that almost makes it even more sad to me, especially as a Disney buff.

I know there's a lot going on in the world, and we mere mortals hang on to stuff that sometimes doesn't matter such as celebrity gossip.  However, this is one of those things I feel that we can be sad about for a short time, mourn, and then go on.  But I also think we need to be especially aware due to his death being a suicide.  My boyfriend said, "I don't understand when people take their lives, especially people who the world over loves and admires..." But, so many people suffer from depression or similar illnesses and don't get help.  There are so many help lines out there for people to call when the temptation arises.  At the risk of sounding like a TV commercial, I want to put it out there that if you or someone you know are suffering from depression or other illnesses or addictions, or you just need help and someone to talk to, please see this compiled list that I've seen several times going around on Tumblr.

To the fans, friends and family of Robin Williams, my condolences.

Quote of the Day Tuesday

"Just because you’re not where you want to be, doesn't mean you’re a failure." -Marc Churnoff


I came across this quote in an article titled 16 Reasons You're Succeeding in the Life (Even If You Don't Feel You Are) while looking on my Facebook feed for things to post yesterday.  I recommend that you read the article for yourself as it is very encouraging...and I'd just want to repost the entire thing here.  It hits a chord in me, especially right now that I'm trying to achieve a goal that isn't happening very quickly or easily.

I'll let the article speak for itself.  But for now, I'm doing what I can with what I have, and trying to get to where I want to be...even if it takes a little while.

Quote of the Day Tuesday

"Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day." --A.A. Milne

More on patience.  My dream goal will happen some day.  As long as I work hard at it, it seems.  I feel really confident, even if it takes some time, that it will happen before the end of the year.  And if it doesn't, well, then there's always next year.

I get nervous, though, too, especially when I'm talking to people about my dream goal and I hear a hint of doubt in their voice.  However, that just makes me want to sell the idea to them even more.  I want to prove to everyone, whether I have to or not, that this is really what I want, and what is best for me to help me grow into a better and more independent person.

I've gotten over the nervousness of being rejected.  I don't have time to be disappointed.  I only have time to be determined and push on with force, but again, being patient.

I'll get to San Diego someday, even if I wanted to be there yesterday.  It WILL happen with perseverance.

Quote of the Day Tuesday

"The sea does not reward those who are too anxious, too greedy, or too impatient.  To dig for treasures shows not only impatience and greed, but lack of faith.  Patience, patience, patience, is what the sea teaches.  Patience and faith.  One should lie empty, open, choiceless as a beach--waiting for a gift from he sea." - Anne Morrow Lindbergh

That quote is from Anne Morrow Lindbergh's book Gift from the Sea.  I was recommended this book by a fellow that came into the shop when I was doing my internship.  And he was right to do so.  It's full of little lessons that I can take and apply to my life.  It's especially helpful to be right now when I feel like I'm freaking out over everything.

Patience is something that I'm always working on, and I assume everyone works on for a long time.  I feel that I have been getting better at being patient in some things more than others.  For instance, my boyfriend goes away for months at a time to go sailing.  It takes a lot of patience for me to sit back and wait for him to come home.  Some days are better than others, but I usually try to occupy myself with projects or tasks to make the time go by quicker.  On the other hand, I'm very impatient when it comes to this job hunt thing, as you all well know by now.

This quote struck home yesterday when I read it because I am on a journey to get to the sea, but I'm clearly digging.  I don't have faith that my transition is going to happen smoothly.  But I need to just relax and let things be and go with the tide.  I explained something to my friend Den yesterday as being a push and pull, like waves.  And that's similar to what I'm feeling now.  I need to do a little bit at a time, slowly washing away the sand from my shell, not just come crashing down on it all and risk breaking my shell.

Step by step, everything will fall into place if only I have some patience and faith.

Quote of the Day Tuesday

"When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready.  The challenge will not wait.  Life does not look back.  A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny." --Paulo Coelho

I feel like life has sprung my San Diego dream scenario on me multiple times.  I feel like I have had opportunities in the past to apply for jobs there that I may have gotten...but I made the excuse that I wasn't ready, or it wasn't the right time.  And that was partially true.  What was I going to do, break the lease and just move out there and leave my roommate stranded with the apartment?  No, I couldn't do that.  But now that we're nearing the end of the lease, I have to start looking outward.

No job leads this week.  But I'm always looking.  And I'm still working on my own projects.

Quote of the Day Tuesday

“Today’s patience can transform yesterday’s discouragements into tomorrow’s discoveries. Today’s purposes can turn yesterday’s defeats into tomorrow’s determination.” – William Arthur Ward

I'm working on being patient a lot at the moment.  Between waiting on hearing about temp jobs, to finding a job in San Diego, it just takes time.  I felt a lot of discouragement last Friday.  But, I just had to alter my mindset a little bit to adjust my feeling of defeat.  These opportunities are not burdens, they're just that - opportunities.  They're more experiences to add to my resume.  And hopefully more money in my pocket so that I can afford moving to and living in Southern California.

The search continues...and I'm determined.

Quote of the Day Tuesday

"If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be.  Now put foundations under them." - Henry David Thoreau

I've decided to change my Quote of the Day Tuesday's a little by adding a little blurb each week about what I actually think about the quote, rather than just throwing it at you.  I hope you enjoy.  Please let me know what you think!

I found this quote on Monday.  It really hit home for me, personally.  By now, you know my story and my dream about how I want to end up in San Diego.  After all, that is what a lot of my art is based on, and a goal I am currently striving for.  In the past few weeks, I've been seriously searching for jobs in San Diego and the surrounding areas.  I've found many Fibers related jobs and have applied, but no one has really gotten back to me.  Though frustrating, I continue to march on.  I am constantly looking for new insights to employment in my dream city.

I feel like my time in college was really my time to build the castles in the air that Thoreau mentions.  And now, after college, this is my time to start building those foundations to put under the castles.  It's going to be hard work, and it already has been.

The problem with emailing cover letters to blind ads instead of being able to call the employers up personally is both a blessing and a curse to someone like me.  I feel that at home I am somewhat of an introvert, but when I am placed in a setting where I must be an extrovert, I can adapt easily and do that.  So when I just have to fabricate a cover letter about myself, how I'd be a perfect fit for a job, and send it off, I'm comfortable.  However, it loses the immediate satisfaction of knowing if the person reading applications is actually hearing me or even taking me into consideration.  But I press on and continue my job hunt.

I am determined to build foundations under my castles in the air.

Quote of the Day Tuesday

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” – Steve Jobs

Quote of the Day Tuesday

“Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile. Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
-Mark Twain