“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”― Lao Tzu
I try not to resist changes. I might not like them, but I tend to accept everything that comes my way. It is what it is. But I'm hoping that everything will "flow naturally" into moving to San Diego.
I'm so tired of just talking about it. I want to do something and make it happen. For real. Even the boyfriend told me the other day that he's serious about going and is tired of dawdling around. The only problem is that I face a double edged sword: I can't move there unless I have a job, and it's seems that I can't get a job unless I live there. ...but I can't live there because I can't afford it. See my dilemma? That's why I'm taking on temp work, that's why I'm working full time, that's why I'm living with my family. These must be the natural and spontaneous changes...
I'm trying to take the steps to put all of it in motion...but it's difficult when no one cooperates with me. No one seems to understand that I'm not asking them to pay for my way out there. I always specifically put in any cover letter or application that I want to move at no expense to my future employer. I send off three or four applications every couple of days...and still, nothing. But I guess when it is the right time, something will happen
So, here's hoping I can do some networking this weekend during the San Diego Yarn Crawl. Here's hoping that someone will hear me someday and realize I might be a perfect fit for the position. Here's hoping I can work in a field I enjoy so that it doesn't feel like work and so that I don't wake up every morning swearing at my alarm (like I did yesterday).